attention world.

hello world:

i would like to direct your attention to the incredible work of nick brandt. his pieces are simply awe-inspiring and he shall assume the position of god immeadiately.

that is all.

second update post

another quick update as i procrastinate editing my novel and completing that picture i promised myself i would finish tonight:

i need another adventure.
yes, it's true. danya is going through that phase in which she needs to go somewhere outside her town with someone who is like-minded so she can get angry and think and talk about everything and nothing at the same time. this is because she a.) misses her buddies who are in thailand, b.) can't seem to actually do anything at this point in time, and c.) needs be happy and unaware of her problems, even for just an hour.
hopefully, this need will be fullfilled tomorrow, but if not, i will have to lock myself in my room with good books, a lot of water and fruit, and good music for a day.

i am upset with the world.
for some reason, the universe can not seem to stop beating me down and no this is not a sympathy post because if you know me, you know i hate sympathy. i keep disappointing people while trying to make myself happy, i keep getting focused on things i think are bullshit (high school drama, etc.), i think that people around me are not doing the right things (like doing drugs when they shouldn't) but since i'm not sure, i don't say anything and then feel overwhelmed with secrecy and bullshit.
i don't know what is wrong with me, but i just know something's wrong.

anyways, i need to go back to editing my novel. how is your life going?
i hope you're not going crazy, because that's never fun.

genius points

in my math class (which is as boring as hell, but that is a different post), my "table" came up with the concept of genius points. we made a page in my notebook with the words "genius points" in bold with a highlighter-colored rainbow sprouting from the left side of the 'p'. genius points are given out as necessary and can be accquired in a few different ways:

- by being a genius
- by doing something incredibly nice
- by doing something that makes us all laugh
- by helping someone out
- etc.

i know it sounds like a stupid high school concept that is just made to waste time in class (which it is...), but i was thinking about how awesome it would be if we actually had something like genius points in regular life, where you would get acknowledged for doing something amazing (besides the usual 'thank you' or 'good job'). i'm not saying it should be a contest or anything, but i think that people get so beaten down just because they make so much effort but no one notices, and genius points are just a way to acknowledge people's amazing-ness.

stuff post

stuff i've been working on:
- i've been editing my novel and am finding it excruciatingly slow. after writing 50k in a month, slowing down is really difficult. but i guess i really love the premise and have a concept in my mind of where i want it to go, so that's why i'm hanging on and pushing on.
- i reconstructed a shirt that i absolutely love and am trying to progress into actually reconstructing all of the clothes that i never wear. my friend and i agreed to not buy any new clothes because the fact is, unless your clothes are shredded and falling apart, you never need to buy any clothes. you can just keep reconstructing them. and that, my friends, leads to the concept of reusing absolutely everything and never buying anything which is way to complex for my mind at this hour.
- i've been reading and analyzing literature a lot lately but more on that later.
- i've been thinking a lot about my future and what i'm actually going to do when i graduate from high school. i make plans with my friends and i dream up shit that i want to do, but now that it's this close, i need to figure what i'm ACTUALLY going to do, you know? if my grandfather follows through buying my a 1974 volkswagen hippie van, i'm going to try to travel south america with one of my friends, but who the hell knows.
- i'm trying to climb more often and actually went climbing one day at the gym instead of just saying i'm going to climb but not actually doing it. i really do love bouldering, but i'm lazy (and don't worry. i know that's no excuse.), but i need to get into the habit of going at least twice a week.
- i bought reusable pads. i've been wanting to do this for a while but never got around to it. i'm still waiting for them to be shipped, but i'm hoping they're awesome.

books i've been reading:
- the awakening by kate chopin
- dawn by elie weisel
- night by elie weisel
- tuesdays with morrie
- cunt by inga muscio
- trying to read the monkey wrench gang
- trying to read the revolution will not be microwaved
- NEED to read the alchemist by paolo coelho
- NEED to read drop city by t.c. boyle
- NEED to read a tale of love and darkness by amos oz
- NEED to read the little prince by antoine de st. exupery

things i've been thinking:
- people should turn off their fucking tvs and pick up a book. this society would be so much better off if we all sat around reading and discussing literature.
- the world needs public bicycles because cars are bullshit, no matter how much i like them and how convenient they are.
- how am i going to live without my friends for a month? (kate and kristen are going to thailand for their realms trip)

homework i need to finish tonight:
- creative writing story: need to write the last vignette and edit to make sure it doesn't sound like shit.
- english: burn powerpoint of van gogh and the awakening onto cd and print out.
- chemistry: study for the quiz and actually go in early tomorrow because you will fail it if you don't. and danya, you need good grades if you want to go someplace like evergreen for college. so try to get your chem. grade above a d.

yep. pretty much.